Today

 All I ever feel is emptiness. Sadness. Hurt. Regret. Pain. Failure. Numbness. 

I've been screaming for help. At this point I am just drowning in my own tears.

I don't see any way out anymore. I think about suicide everyday.

Every single day. 

Do I just finally do what I have been wanting to since I was 12?

Or should I just run away?